Pense Aqui

The entrance door into your origin, what a fascinating name of the entrance!
Over this door be there original home of my spirit and soul. And, under this door, there is a notice saying “Just Perfect YOU only can enter this gate!”

I knock this door, and the door is saying suddenly.
“How can you go to your homeland of your soul?”
And I respond, “How? This is exactly my question to you, the door! How can I?”
And the door says just like a parrot, “How can you go to you home of your soul?”
I make a comment, pointing out, “Well, as the notice of the door says, I have to be a perfect I, possibly.”
Then, the door, “Who is the perfect YOU?”
I say, “Well, I who can co-share with others and love everybody and everything.”
The door asks, “Then, you are the one now?”
” At least, I am trying to be such a person, anyhow.”
“How, then ?”
I try to explain, “I did study, and have read many books, and with good efforts so far, and have had many experiences. I know myself better by analyzing myself, and I came back here, as reincarnated, to re-study lessons”
“ And then?”
“I have learned to observe myself from outer side neutrally, you know; for instance, when I am angry, I just create another myself to observe my angry self coolly. And then, you know, the anger will vanish.”
“And then?”
“Jealousy may be the same thing as anger. I am a envying person indeed. I need celebrity and fame in the society. However, when I am mad with this envy, I create another myself to observe envying self as something rubbish, you know. Envy does, then, go away.”
“And then?”
“I can realize everything that I want; I believe in that my imagination can realize every wish and hope of mine. So I imagine strongly what I want to get. I am the one who create this reality! I am the source, and could not be an offended nor a victim, for my reality is my-made. So my weak points and shortcomings can be modified by my strong will, which is what I have learned so far in this life. In this sense, I am much nearer to the perfect I.”
“And then?”
“Do I have to explain more? Well, then, I still have negative emotions appearing like fear and sadness. These negative emotions can trap others around me. The happy is the most positive thing; I try to wipe away any emotion which does not lead to the happiness, you know. How? Well, the same way; to observe myself.”

“And then?”
“Then, I can become a Perfect I That I AM.”
“In essence, what do you mean by “becoming a perfect I”?
“To become perfect means I have grown up.”

I venture to open the door, and then, it is simply open. I should have opened the door without hesitating.
I try to pass the door, but, I hit another door with a word, “The door of Inspiration”. And then, doors behind this door, saying “The door of Learning”, and “The door of Jealousy”, and “The door of Shortcomings”, “The door of Sadness”, “The door of Fear”…..and then, back again the first door “Just Only For Perfect YOU”.

All I have explained has just created many doors!!!

The door says. “You have just created many doors to clear.”
I refute, “The, what on earth is this door just for the perfect I?”
“To be perfect is what you have wished so much, and your objectives in the life are to become perfect, right?”, the door comments.
“I do not think so, for I know now that I am nobody, and I have lived as nobody.”
“Well, this is what your consciousness insists so, but your sub-consciousness has always been trying to be perfect by good evaluations by others; your comment like “I am nobody and nothing” is just to make yourself a knowing wise person.”
“You are a sharp-needle to have said to this!”

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Silence a bit stays between me and the door.
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At last, “Please give some hints, my door!”
“When you think, are you heading to something?”
“Absolutely, yes so. I think because I need answers!”
“Answers for what?”

“Answers to be perfect”
“Indeed have you lived your life to become who you want to be.”
“Seeking to be perfect is very natural desire, isn’t it?”
“Well, then, could there be anything perfect?”
“However, your door has the notice “the perfect only”.”
“Would you reincarnate endlessly?”
“Not at all”
“Then, what is original home or source of your soul?”
“The birth point, the starting point”
“Not bad.”
“You have sought and do seek to “become”…..”
“To become…..a good person, creative person, beloved person, loving person”

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I lift into this reality and have a rest.
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Yes, indeed, when you perfect your reality by becoming this and that, but, this could not be to realize the original yourself that you are.

I drift back into the inner heartspace again to find myself in front of the door,
“Please ask me the question.”
“How can you go back to your original home of your soul?”
And I answer, “By becoming the perfect I”
The door continues, “Who is the perfect I?”
And I breathe out deeply,
“I am now here.”
And all the doors are opened now.
Over the doors, there is a rainbow-colored energy ball, sun in the center, and then the orange, and the blue.
I jump into the core of this energy orb-field just to find many known face who have offended me or supported me in big smiling. This is the place from where my soul begins and returns….

I get back to the door, and ask, “You are I myself, aren’t you?”
And the door beams in smiling, “Yes, indeed so, another YOU!”

Breezing winds are going in and out…..and I am here now.